Friday, May 13, 2011

Kaitlin



There is a saying and it goes like this. "God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good." I feel like rejoicing today. I met my future daughter and I am so glad I did. Kaitlin is a very sweet, loving, kind little girl. She is definitely looking for love. Praise the Lord he put her with her current foster parents! They love her like CRAZY! That is exactly what she needed the last 6 months before she found us! We had a wonderful time meeting Kaitlin, her foster family and the people who work with Kaitlin. She has a place in my heart and I am very impatient to bring her home. I know she is human, things will not always be perfect. I am human and I am not perfect. I know, you weren't sure, right? Well, even I am not perfect and I am sure we will have bumps in the road, but there is one thing I am sure of right now. God is calling us to adopt Kaitlin and we are following his call. We will hopefully get to have her here in our home by the end of May. That is if things go as we plan and her current foster family plans. We shared lots of hugs, lots of play time, and lots of love the last two days. She is a girly girl through and through and has BEAUTIFUL hair to play with! She even likes it being done! I might need some help from women who have had girls, I only know how to french braid and regular braid! We now start to get her room ready. I am so excited to bring my daughter home I can barely stand it! Ephesians 3:20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.

My God, my Father in Heaven. I am so humbled by your commitment to me, to Kaitlin to our family. I am so in awe at the answered prayers and thankful. Lord I went into this weekend scared, wondering if this is what you are calling us to, or if I was messing up. I was letting Satan have the upper hand at night when I would contemplate things in my mind. Lord, you blessed me this weekend by a little girl named Kaitlin. You showed me how your love and your purpose is at work. You gave me peace in knowing Kaitlin is my little girl. You blessed us with a wonderful time together and you blessed both Brad and I with peace in the situation. Thank you Father for Kaitlin. Thank you for her current foster parents and workers. Thank you for leading me to her. Thank you for trusting our family to be Kaitlin's family. Thank you Lord for Kaitlin. I don't stop asking though Lord. There is a lifetime of growth for Kaitlin and our family. I ask you to bond our boys and Kaitlin this coming week. I ask you to bless the time with love, caring, understanding and the peace that Brad and I feel to go beyond us and into ALL our children, including Kaitlin. I pray you will continue to heal Kaitlin's wounds. Take away the sins of others that have been put on her. Take away her fear, her hurt, her memories of those who were not nice to her. Take away all that sin of others and make her heart, mind and soul new as she enters a new chapter of her life. Lord, you took on the sins of the world to make us clean. Take this away from Kaitlin so she can be the carefree little girl she deserves to be. Allow us to build her up in your name. Thank you Lord Jesus for the time we spent with Kaitlin the last two days. Thank you for blessing our lives. Help us to bless Kaitlin's life with your love from now on. In Jesus name I pray this prayer, Amen

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Chosen

I got a call Monday. We were chosen. Us, Our Family, The Coxes. Our family was chosen for a little girl. It is still a bit surreal. I am still trying to wrap my mind around it. Brad and I get to go meet her tomorrow. Will you pray for us? Pray God's hand stays upon this situation, that he renews her heart, soul and mind. That is is renewed in a way that she can be the little girl she is supposed to be and not live with the memories of what bad has happened to her? Pray God's hand heals her little heart to be whole again. Pray she loves us as much as we will love her. Pray her transition isn't so scary and as she meets Brad and I there will be a connection and then when she meets our boys there will be a connection. God is here, the Holy Spirit is praying on our behalf and Jesus Christ is interceding for us and bringing it to God. Isn't God amazing. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans for a hope and a future. Philippians 1:6 He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Dear Lord, you know me so well, you know our little girl just as well. You have seen her past, her past hurt and the troubles she has now. Heal her Lord Jesus. Let her come into her new life, her new household whole and not held by the bonds of fear and pain from her past. Lay your gentle healing hand upon her this day Lord so she can be the little girl she is supposed to be. One without fear of what will happen next. Go before Brad and I tomorrow as we go to meet her and allow us to fall in love with her just as we did when we learned about each of our children in my womb. Guide or actions, our thoughts and words tomorrow when we meet our little girl. In Jesus name I pray, Amen